Chapter Closed

Finally passed my file. Irony eh? My successor was the one who caused me the most trouble throughout the year. But who cares bout the past? I dun want people to judge me based on reputation, and so I wont judge people based on that point as well. I judge one's "capability".

Funny thing is everyone laughed when I pass file. It was a funny scene. lol.

Anyway, I finally can get rid of the title and be a normal student! *hoorays!* No more politics!!! And now I can concentrate on Ed Board. Sorry that I didn't do a good job as Sub EIC because I put all my efford in Prefect (>.<)

I am old!!!! Imagine that!!!!

I am so gonna march out during Installation I dont care!!! My last marching, and my FIRST time doing this hormat. =p

emo post ahead, skip if you want. xD

Tomorrow's AGM! Can't determine my successor yet. I prefer A & B, Livia & Xian Di prefers A & C. Yet to ask Zong Yao. There are pros and cons for candidate B & C la.

So fast...one year d. Nostalgic. Like some Form4s, I aimed KP since very long time ago when the Iron Man failed to get the KP. I thought I wanna make a change, plans laid out ahead, but weeks before election I rethink, and I really the best candidate?

I told myself the answer was no. My batch dislikes me, so it won't work. A KP who cannot gain the cooperation and respect from colleagues, esp. committees is not a KP. I knew I won't get the head, but I failed to get PKP as well. Kinda expected I wont get them, since people dont like me, though I used to think I have the highest chance among the others because of "capability", but humans judge "reputation" more than "capability" I didn't get where I want.

But I told myself, I am here for the board, the better good of the board, not there for a post. Many people are there, just for a post. Like Zean Shiung says, some wanted a post because they want it. They dont even know why they want it. It's like a way to complete their high school life and that's all. "I have good academic, now I need a post to make my co-curricular side to look nicer and that's why I aim high." That kind of thinking. Many have that. They want a post, for a post, and they dunno why they are holding it.

I still can do something from any other post. I put away Setia post because I knew Livia was the same kind of person as me and she has a high chance to get KD. If I be the KD we can work together and our strength together will be much stronger than I am if I were Setia, cause being together with people with different personality as you in a dpt only leads to conflicts, plus...I dont think they want to serve, and they want a post because they want it. I thought I cant work with people like these.

Thus I need others' hand to carry out my plans. Yes that's what I did. Despite not getting head, I still can do something, that's what I thought. I gave my suggestions, came out with systems, proposals, and I did not chose the wrong path. Together Disciplinary Dpt gets the confidence of teacher tho we bypassed the top5 at times.

Yes not being the head really gave me a hard time. Many things that you wanted to carry out was not carried out when you lay it on others' hand. Because they are not you, and esp. when some of those people do not know the reason of them being at the top. But this is people's choice. They have a reason for not putting you up there. Like Livia said, we fail for a reason. I fail because I dont have the reputation. True. My human skills suck. Tho being a great thinker and efficient worker, I lack human skill.

Perhaps I gave the seniors the impression that I was too eager for the KP post, and all the while I do my duty well was acting for the post, or I will become MC if I do not get the post. I told you I was damn pissed at that moment when I heard this from some seniors. They categorised me as those people who work for a post like some other *censored* that I hate. They doubted my loyalty towards the board. But I think wisely, perhaps that's the image I had given the others, maybe that's not my true intention, but I have to learn from the failure. Like what some seniors told me "they will regret for not choosing for you capability"

I still rmb what Yin Bin said la, tapi damn perasan de. haha. "If this man fails (to get the head), the board falls" That time I still thought, some candidates are quite good too, but now see their performance and think, they also get a post because they want a post like others. But still, I gotta live with it. If people like those with reputation, THEN LIVE WITH IT, stop COMPLAINING that the committees are not doing things. You have your responsibility for choosing the wrong person that you don't like too. And that's the main reason for us to hold the meeting with Form 4.







My reason for writing this post (Tho I dunno how many people have patience to read until the end) is to let the Form4s to know, no matter what the result is, live with it and do your part. Stop blaming the fate, the stupidity of others for not putting u as the top, stop blaming that others have no eyes. Rethink about your actions, did you build the wrong impression? Did you fullfill the criteria of being an ideal leader? Leadership by example, serving selflessly, human skills, problem solver, hands-on worker...etc. Dont think any of the criteria above is not important. Without any of them, people WILL NOT obey you. Before you have ALL the criterias above, stop saying others have no eyes and did not choose you. LIVE WITH IT.

You might not be the head, but you can still do something, as long as you are consistent, and you never give up, keep proposing tho they are ignored or rejected, BUT make sure you confront the authorities before giving up on them. You serve no rights to look down upon them before they make any mistake, even tho they are not as good as you. Until they really failed to carry out their responsibility, only then you have the rights to not respect them as your leaders.





Above are all personal experience in THIS board. These board have too many spoilt kids and being spoilt kids, they are immature. But no matter how, you still have to deal with the immature people before you form your "mature people league" and start your opposition. I do not know about your future, as I do not know your leaders as you do, and I can only speak this from my experience dealing with MY leaders. May all of you keep your faith strong and never stop trying until the day you retire.

Happie~~~!!!!

Today Brother John finally returned Physics Paper 3! I was stunned when I first saw the paper. 39/40!!!! Gosh. And then I look at the wrong question. "Voltage decreases linearly as current increases" I tak tahu why wrong lo. I go ask him, you know what he say?

"I didn't see your linearly, put on the table"

ZOMG!!!!! Full marks for Paper 3!!!!! I seriously cant believe it. xD Sorry if I sound boasting, tapi memang super happy, cant help it la kay?



Then stayed at TTC after Accounts tuition. Damn loads of funny jokes okay? Laugh until stomach oso pain. Me Hou Yan n Soo Ling.

Joke1:
You Hang: big and fat ppl are always optimistic and can joke well. like Yeong Yih ar, Yung Hsin ar. Then Hou Yan oso.
Kai Boon: You Hang you oso can joke ma *Indicating he's fat too* lolx.
You Hang: Soo Ling oso very joke-able ma
Soo Ling: (giving him the killing stare)
Hou Yan: Kai Boon oso very funny wo
Kai Boon: wah swt. Like in a gazillion year you are the first one who says I am fat. lol.

Then we talk about fat ppl being optimistic and funny, and we say Hou Yan, and Shiau Ling ngam ngam come in,.

Yeong Yih: neh neh here got another one.

Then we all start laughing, and Shiau Ling was like blur blur keep asking us what, the more she ask the louder we laugh. Damn swt man. Okay now think back....not very funny oso, why laugh till stomach ache ar?


Joke2:
Mun Mun: what's a "wet blanket" ar?
Hou Yan: Dunno, ask Yew Ho, his English very good
Yew Ho: scratch head. "wet blanket"? Forgot d, need to see sentence. (Start walking towards Mun Mun)
Mun Mun: No sentence wo, only words

And ngam ngam this time, Yew Ho "AH CHIU" so damn loud. And we started laughing.

Kai Boon: Lol!!! Lucky Yew Ho walk slow 2 steps, or else reached Mun Mun d only "ah chiu" cham liao
Hou Yan: HAHAHAH!!! Yaya! Later Mun Mun whole face oso got water droplet. Hahahahaha....

swt right?

Soo Ling: (came in from outside) Ei what so funny, I heard someone hahahahahaha then I know sure is Hou Yan d
Hou Yan: Neh neh just now (talking the story again while I act as Yew Ho)
Soo Ling: (Laugh)


PS: Louise why do you have to write your Literature answer for so long!? x)

2nd Photoshoot

Overall the photoshoot was a success.

Things to highlight:
1. Ungu has the least people in photo! No fair biru so damn big. But shows that Ungu less ppl oso get champion right? Cause' we banyak chun ma! *perasanness*

2. Quote of the day:"SUI LUN WHY ARE YOU THERE!!!!????" *FYI he tried to go into the 5S1-5S4 graduating photo. So Louise and I kenakan him when he taking 5S5-5SF photo and shoot him "I thought you took just now!?" x)*

3. Ed Board AJK didn't take their group photo like last year seniors did! Sobz....no fair....the funny things all cannot do d.

4. Someone's face writes "I am a jackass" cause he stole out tapak and claimed that he has permission and he's gonna use it for only 20 minutes.

5. A guy actually made Pn. Lee Kim Lai to wait for him and come in macam banyak yeng like a VIP and smile smile....and when kena boo still have face to ask ppl to keep quiet. Pn. Lee actually said go on without him one lo. Banyak dai pai.

That's all. Tata

Becca's Outing

Last Saturday went out to MV for Becca's farewell outing. Thought gonna give her a surprise bday, but apparently she wasnt really surprise cause....maybe she got some hint thru our convo. xD no fun....

Anyways, I watched Transformer again, with them. lol *Doing a neni neni bubu face to Sui Lun*
Funny thing during lunch.......The waiter served a dish to me, and I thought its the food I order and start eating....and then only realized its Livia's. swt right? Their food looked so damn similar until cannot recognize lo. But damn fish......paiseh dao ar....

And another thing, we actually get Becca's cake from Secret Recipe. Apparently we want Cheese Choc, but Julian told them Choc Cheese. we thought sama aje. Mana tahu.....haha. Cheese Choc was the cake we had during my bday, Choc Cheese is the one in the 4th pic below

Discipline camwhore again....3 missing 1 again.

Stalking the "couple who dont want to admit they are couple"

Stalking

Becca cutting her cake

Group pic







Oh yea, during lunch Ru Jun had a phone call with her brother. And then we heard
RJ: You sure you wanna come ar? All prefects here wo!
Liv & Ai Shuen: Prefect kill ppl izit!?

swt nia. Then RJ brother insist coming. And once he reached here, look at us, and tell Ru Jun "I think I will leave" *Doing SuTeng's signature tetiao...... sound*

Apparently the Choc Cheese really made us full....too....how should I say...."pekat?" dunno. We cannot finish, and then make Bec to bring back. She ar...saying going back Melaka dun1. At the end the cake ended up on Karluis' hand. Here's the convo.

Bec: Eh how cannot finish.
Sut: I remember Sui Lun was stuffing all the cheese cake into his mouth last time during our bday. He memang like cheese cake la.
Bec: And Jeng Mey!
KB: Ask Karluis to bring back to school since he is dropping by. Pass to KRS la since they are having camp in school.
Karl: But I am not going in la!
KH: As long as u settle the cake. We dun care if u eat it or give them, as long as you take the cake.

I guess that's about the day. This time I watch Transformer for the funny parts. Some spoiler convo. Continue for some fun if you had watched.

























"Tongue tongue tongue!!!!"
"I am the victim! Can you imagine? The mouth full with smell of DIESEL!"
"(whisper) That's a good question!"
"I am right under.....The enemy's scrotum!"

Leadership

I read the book again. "360 Degree Leader" written by John C Maxwell. This guy is famous of writing books regarding leadership. Try reading his book, you will discover wonders.

July will be a month full of "emoish" post. I dun wanna cram everything in one post on the day I retire, that day will be reserve for my "retire feeling" xD

Overall, the journey is coming to an end. It's a long process, and I always take it as a learning process. I rmb I used to be very narrow, and getting a post to me is...to get it so that I can do something, so that I can have a say in the organization. I wanted to show people that I can do something.

Like I said, joining YE last year was a whole new learning experience. I learned to see things in a different view. Getting a post, is not just serving, but is learning.

You learn to communicate with people,
learn to make decisions,
learn to work as a team,
learn to solve conflicts.



Being a leader, is not just running an organization that simple.

Being leader, you need to love the organization you lead, and to put it before anything.
Being leader, you drive out the best of EVERYONE in your organization, not just your potential.
Being leader, you let your subordinates shine more than yourself.
Being leader, you are the centre, the symbol, the image, and that you have to set a good example.
Being leader, you work together with your subordinates, not just sitting and giving commands for them to carry out.
Being leader, your decision affects the whole organization, and that you never make critical decisions alone.
And being leader, you learn.

You learn to accept,
accept others' capability, even if they are better than you.
accept failure, because you learn more when you fail.
accept opinions, because no man is an island.
accept difference, because you cannot expect everyone to think and act the same like you.


I still have way too much to learn.



"You learn the most being in the middle of the organization, but yet it is also the toughest to cope with" That's what I conclude from his book.

The head of the organization, you only worries about what happens to your organization and your subordinates' feeling.

The base of the organization, you only work for your salary and wait for orders.

The middle of the organization, you think for your subordinates, and you have to care bout your boss' feeling as well. You work for your salary, but yet you have your responsibility towards the organization. You need to know your "upper boundary" and "lower boundary"



And I have to agree, being in the middle is really the toughest.
Being the MD, I dun have to fear about "over-righting", being the KD, this is the toughest issue.
Being MD, I fight for the rights of the achivers, being KD, I fought for the others, but I angered the tops.
It's not that simple. I thought MD is the worst job in my high school life, seems like I was wrong.




Leadership is way too wide, and you can never learn everything. Keep learning, and never think that you are the best. Once you think you are great, fabulous, awesome, you fail. I thought I was great, and working with the Disciplinary team, I aint that awesome. We are all equal, or perhaps, the others are even better than me. (Maybe we shouldn't have Penolong KD at all, we should have 2 KD (L) and 2 KD (P) )

Change for the future

Today had the meeting with Form4, went unexpectedly smooth and...we talk like adults. Not crap like what we did in the past.

A day to rmb. At least we are looking forward for a change. But on the other hand, sigh...we gonna leave the board, telling the others, "our greatest achievement in the board was organizing the final heart-to-heart talk meeting with the Form4s!" lolx....looks like we didn't do much this year too...

I just feel...at least we did our best throughout the year la. I will leave this till the day I retire. What I wanna say is......We Form5 are never recognized by the Form4s one lo. But today, after the meeting, when we say dismiss, they actually clapped for us. Like seriously...they clapped. I memang stunned lo.

I feel like...so much that we can do, but actually never try to do. I have to admit la, I too avoided the problem. If we can talk to our batch of people like how we talk to them, I still do believe, we can do better than what they are capable of. Just see how much legacy we left during Form2. But well, everything is over, and...over.

Gosh I feel so old.....

Count down: 10 days.