Holiday Mood

I am still so in holiday mood, after the YE sales and sports day. And heck, exam's coming in 2 weeks time, and YE gotta continue busy again after thursday. And I have to do some preparation, so means I shall be busying again tomorrow. And prefects I gotta burn some CDs, (150++ to be detailed) means not really much time for me to study eh?

And yea, I missed a lot of class for YE. Workshop, sales, and before that ed-board photo thingy, I missed the whole chapter 3, and I haven't even studied them. And the exam is before the holiday, and those papers are really shitty, sciences paper 2 and language paper 1. Damn it man...

Ah well, I shall enjoy my last day of "holiday", I gotta go back to my busy routine after tonight.

Bye sweet days!
Bye relaxing moments,
I shall meet you after the exam, end of June...
wait wait, YE sales and events....
means I shall meet you after July....
wait wait, prefects election, AGM, annual lunch/dinner preparation...
ok, I shall meet you after August....
wait wait...YE annual reports and awards....
I shall meet you after September
wait wait...exam again....
I shall meet you DURING YEAR END HOLIDAY THEN!!!!!
ok....I am starting to feel freaked out by my busy routine....nvm...

random: I fell in love with the word "cucuk" after ungu marching. haha. I really like to use the word cucuk in my lines. go cucuk!!! lolx

AHHHHH MY ADD MATHS!!!!

well the title show everything. It's AHHHH not YESSSS....sigh....I thought I was able to get somewhere near 80 for add maths you know, who knows....I got only 66.....and seeing the paper really pissed me...ITS ALL CARELESS MISTAKES!!!!! sigh.....I thought I got someone else's paper you know....sigh...

But to my relief my English got 86, it's like, around 10 marks more than my expectation. And my physics is 68, 8 marks mroe than what i've expected. haha (cuz physics is really a subject that I have 0 confident in) but it's like...68....so sayang.....near 70 leh, and made some stupid calculation mistakes too....or else should be near 73....but who cares, I didn't fail my physics! oh yea....haha.

And I am very lucky, to beat somebody....yes that particular body who keeps comparing with me. And always screams why kai wen u got 1 mark higher than me for this subject. (seriously I've got like, 3 papers each having 1 or 2 marks higher than the person) hmm....but who cares, this exam I am only competiting with MYSELF. I am just trying to suit myself with form4, hopefully can get 75 purata. (its not a great demand, after all, its only the first term exam, and many essays questions are yet to be revealed) hopefully can have 75, and next time maybe somewhere near 70, I hope.....(as long as it doesn't drop below 70)

well gotta chaoz....I GOTTA PREPARE FOR FREAKING ENGLISH ORAL PRESENTATION 2MORO...

well it goes like this...
Pn Shanti: 2moro I will start oral presentation
class: NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
Pn Shanti: I dont care I told you before CNY, as long as I got 5 ppl to present 2moro. If you have not prepare, go find 5 volunteers, as long as there are 5 2moro.
Yao Jie: KAI BOON!!!! kai boon i know you do redi, pls pls!
Darren Choo: Pls Kai Boon....go go....
Kai Boon: (jaw drops)(after a while) teacher do we have bonus mark for volunteering?
Pn Shanti: (ignores kai boon)
Kai Boon: Yao Jie, ask the whole class to pay me 1 buck each then I will happily do it.
Yao Jie: Eh Kai Boon, I suddenly realise you are very handsome today.
Kai Boon: oh really? (perasan a while) thank you, but I still prefer 1 buck each than compliment.
Yao Jie: (swt)
Pn Shanti: ok, no volunteers, I am calling names 2moro, prepared or not, the ppl called are going to do it, or else, marks deducted.

(case closed)

ah u c I crap so much again...lol bye...

Exhausted....

Apparently yesterday night was rushing on my things that are not done which are stated on my to-do list. And I couldn't finish all of them, so just hantam aje, do what that I have to pass up today. Today not much homework (thank goodness) but I am still very exhausted...I wonder why...

Recap my day, the day started with me waking up at 4.30 to finish up my long-delayed karangan. And reached school in a very very sleepy and tired mood. I feel as if I wish to speak as least as possible, like what the Mugen no Kantai in Shakugan no Shana did, (banjo no shite Whilhelmina Carmel's Lord of Guze) speak only 4 words everytime it/she speaks...how good...

Duty was like...half sleeping, but thank goodness I am still concentrate enough to carry them out, at least. And back to class was sort of a relief. Esspecially with my CURRENT results. (not for those later). Oh yea, 4S3 the pity class has switched with 4S5 to use the class beside Block E toilet. Should I pity them or congratulate them? Toilet is just beside so you can go to the toilet in between class without pas keluar with a very small chance of getting caught. But hope you guys can bare with the "perfume smell" (p/s: Just please dont start spreading the smell or even "bottle-ize" it and spray on us)

Apparently after school's badminton was very dissapointing. It took me half an hour to finish a burger, which I don't know why, perhaps no mood? And I just couldn't do things right. Almost every single smash I did was on the net. I wonder...too exhausted? Before the activity ends my hand was in pain. I wonder why too. It never happened to me for playing an 1 and 3 quarter hour game. But today it was just very pain as if the hand was twisted. I remember I didn't block many smashes which will drain more energy. And so, my conclusion is: I am too tired to even play a badminton game.

Reached home at 5.30, take a nap and woke up by a phone call. Pn Phang.....so you know what is it related to. And yea....she got some new idea on our product, which will not be revelaed as the producing of the product is prohibited for the YE program. So just forget about it......

Apparently just after the nap my body is in full ache. But now I still have tonnes of unfinished business to get them done. Wish me luck. Chaoz.

p/s: I posted my 22nd post after including this in a month. Not bad ey?

Oh yea...now I realise exam is over

Hmm feel so free tonight, why leh, now only I realise exam is over. lolx. Just now was busying with the YE stuff which I don't know what and how to deal with, now got an idea of how should I do d, heh, calmer now.

Hereby I announce, FORM 4 FIRST TERM EXAM IS OVER!!!! (lame~~~~)

Oh yea...now I can do what I want, CAN ONLINE LIKE MAD!!!!!! =D

Guys and Gals, Boys and Girls, Sissys and Tomboys, Human or Animals, ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAY!!!! xD

Oh yea, now I realise, I AM GOOD IN BLOGGING!!!

I just started this blog for one month, and I got 14 posts now (hey I am good). *Gives you a perasanish chuan look*

Thought of The Day

Oh well...how shall I begin with...

Let's start with...OH YEA, 2moro is the last day of exam!!!!!!! (lols) But with Moral and Physics, definitely not an easy day for the final day of *death week*

Anyway, I was called to meet with Pn Phang yesterday, and then she asked me about some people personalities and attitudes etc. And then I was about to keep everything private la, and pretend nothing happen like dat lo.

and today she made an announcement, to meet me, Christine, Lily and Sharon after school. Ok lo. And then Lily asked me what happened, so tell her what's going on, yea...and then others are guessing that four of us got our pose in Young Enterprise redi, and then Lily just tell them she knew her pose as well, then people are so smart, and they got everything correct d. At first I was quite shocked when people start congratulating me. But they just know la, from these small things wo, CHS prefects are always observant xD

Yala I was elected as the Managing Director la, but suddenly feel quite burdened. So this is the feeling of being a team leader. xD not even started anything you feel stressed d. I was initially happy, and plus a bit of worry, most of all feel like nervous. In fact YE is not a club or society that is similiar to any of the clubs in the school. I had totally no experience in this. At first was thinking getting a small pose is enough, or just get a pose that do not need to much of social communication skills. But at the end...Managing Director needs good social communication skills in order to lead the group and act as the bridge between the mentors and the members, wah feel stressed d (but not just from now on, it's from the moment I knew that becoming the Managing Director has been a fact in reality) but it is good la to be recognised by the teacher. Must be prepared and have to start learning from seniors d.

After school meet with teacher to get the booklets, and almost late for my transport, of course got nagged by the driver. xD.

Dying for Bio

Just briefly studied my Bio...briefly, finished at 5am, not bad. But if asked about details, I will die...

Really no mood to study last night. Tried to sleep early but my cousins just came before I sleep so gotta hang around longer. Last night was...awful...can't even concentrate. Perhaps it's my fault to put so much photos on my table and hang them on the wall...I just keep looking at photos but not my textbook. And the photos bring me bitter thoughts. How pathetic I am.

As you can see (or maybe not), my post these few days are so emo-ish. Yes I just can't live properly right now. Feel like talking to someone but everyone should be busy studying so I don't really feel like making phone call to interrupt. 2 months redi lo, but yet I still can't find myself living as a member of 4s1. sigh...

Couldn't cope with studies, don't feel like asking those people around me. Keep bugging people doesn't sound right. Especially when Jing Dao the brain is always busy helping people to solve problem...Don't feel like taking more of his time to answer my silly questions. Miss last year, when another brain (or walking encyclopaedia) Julian is just beside me. And right beside me got Christine who can let me tease and play around. And behind got Chen Nyap and Jun Yang constantly joking. It's real joke, not cold joke.

No time for long post, altho I am only 10% of what I am feeling right now, gotta prepare for school, and I forgot about studying BC...

Drown in exam papers....

Ok damn, I just asked someone not to make my life more miserable, and yet this stupid blog is making my life more miserable, finished my entry and trying to post it, and error occurs and I gotta re-type...

Ok chill, let's start again.

Exam is as hellish as usual, especially when you cannot finish your add-maths, and you dunno what the heck is the question of the Karangan rangsangan in BM paper asking, and the rubbish truck down there is disturbing you throughout the time when you are having chem paper.

next week's paper will be harder, but yet I can't really be bothered to study. I can be traveling to somewhere while studying, which is like so not-right, and it's not thinking of something good, but something bad, those emo-ish things. Had chem n bm paper 2day, and I just started the studies of these subjects yesterday night at 8.30 and I slept at 10, when i am only halfway through my Chem study. Woke up at 3.30 to continue my chem and at 5 only I started BM.

Torturing myself eh? If I could just study earlier I wouldn't have to interupt my goodnight-sleep. But yet, I am doing so. Throughout these few days I even find myself busy watching anime Shakugan no Shana, which I promised my mom only to watch it after exam, but yet every single afternoon I am in front of my computer watching tit, which explains why I just started my studies at night.

And when I thought I can get rid of the freak during exam period, the reality proves me wrong. The freak still keep bugging me (tho less that usual), heck, just let go of me already, I couldn't stand my life now, pls just don't make my life more miserable damn it!

The end of story, and I hope this post goes well...

Freaking Emo Before The Exam!!!

Freaking emo!!!

I noticed that every time before exam I will definitely have this emo-kind of feeling, which really pissed me! i wonder why, is it stress that causes me emo? It's like ruining my study-mood! sigh...I haven't even studied for any subject not until 2 hours ago, which is just preparing for 2moro up-coming add-maths. And I just did like 4 questions and I've got no mood to continue. I am preparing to die for add-maths. Now I notice that this line really come into help (sorta) - Time Is Gold. 2moro add-maths, yes I can do it, I just need more than 1 and a half hour to do so, so......die only la! Past year question I got only 61.25%, which is like so freaking low...Really going to die 2moro d.

Emo Emo Emo Emo Emo Emo Emo...........................

I seriously can't stand my life. It's like...got cut off from any form of connections outside. I can't even find a topic with any of my used-to-be close-friends, when they are busying talking about their class-events among themselves. It's like, S4 will talk to S4 more, and S3 talk with S3 more, it's normal, you can't just ask someone else from other class about what books to bring, or what homework we have, or where has the teacher taught.

So I am cut off from the prefects-society. I often find myself sitting there listening to what people talking only, which sometimes, are things that I don't even have a clue. In class...hell! I gotta face that "particular-person" every single moment. I really really can't stand the person's attitude. Those who you know who is that, just keep quiet okay? As usual, the person will do something, insane behaviour kind. Damn!!! Damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stop bugging me you freak! you are really driving me nuts!!!!!

I seriously, find nothing is left, and what's the meaning of living. I gotta face a freak in class, and after school go home face my dad, another freak. And I got no sense of living at all. I can't even find a person to talk to!!!!!!!! What reliefs me is when we are going Bio and Chem lab, at least, still got Chen Nyap to talk with. I am like, not doing any social-communication with anyone anymore, not until I go to the lab.

I seriously never feel so freaking lonely before. I often can find at least, one person to talk with me. Now I couldn't even find a person whom I am comfortable with to talk with. Am I being forgotten? Am I not noticable? I guess I am...from the reaction you gave me that day, from what you did, I think I am no longer existing.

Standing beside you is pain, esspecially when I feel like an outsider. Keeping distance from you is pain, as I couldn't feel the connection between us anymore. Running from you is pain, as our bond is broken that I have to face my sorrow alone.

sen no yoru wo koete - overcoming Thousand of Nights, now...is only 55 days...

It's pain to see you from the side.
It's pain being left out. It's pain being forgotten.
It's pain being alone.
It's pain to smile even when I don't feel happy.
It's pain to look strong when I am torn.
It's pain to hide what I feel.
It's pain.....to live......
I wanna run from pain...

"ore wa tada jibun dake, tada wa hitori dake, dare mo mieru janai, itsumo, mirai mo...kako no yuujou, kimi no yasashii...ima kieteru...ore no kimochi, ore no kodoku, anata wakaru? dare ka wakaru?"

PPPPPAAAAIIIIIINNNNNNNN!!!!!!

As the title tells you I am in pain...the side-effect of the duty after the photoshoot session. For the two days I gotta move with like...extra caution or else I'll just go "omg pain!" and a "aww!!!" sound will appear from nowhere. (going up and down the stairs is esspecially......giving me a chill-to-the-bones kind of feeling)

well, not only the body is in pain, looking at the pile of homework as the result of not-going-into-class for 2 days gives me eye-sore, yes this time is my eyes that are in pain ok, (yay suteng, how could we get such dedicated teachers who give so much of homework? *sacarsms* *suteng will be like "screeeeeaaaaammmmssssss"*)

and the 3rd pain, mentally in pain, dude exam is just around the corner man, I gotta deal with all the homework and no time left to study!! (how come got time to on9 1 harh?) aiya relaxing a bit ma, facing all the homework will die 1 la. XD Exam will be like, 4 days time, first day add-maths, still ok la, 2nd day chem n bm, okok la, and then got 2 days to study, thank god, now deal with the 3 subjects that are coming this week first.

and to everyone that are still out here enjoying your on9 time like me, wish all of you good luck in your exams! (those only see this after exam 1 ar, 2 bad la, just pretend I didn't wish you all good luck for exam lolx) And for wishing you all luck, I want repay!!!! (zzzzz) Wish me luck too!!! =D