dear bloggie...

dear bloggie...I will be away from 2moro till sunday for prefects' camp, won't be blogging till then, and I need to have a good night sleep today....but it seems that the cruel reality doesn't allow me to do so...

the whole day after school is all about YE, stay back for production and got mad because of some people, and after that sort out the attendance list and busy calling people till now, and do you know how many homework I need to pass up 2morrow?

1) add-maths
2) bio peka
3) tatabahasa
4) Essay
5) rumusan (i think)
6) BC workbook

looking at add maths, peka and essay, you know these three will take at least 2 hours, tatabahasa plus rumusan yet another 1 hour, BC workbook can be done in flash....3 hours of homework, but I just couldn't find a time to do them....

sigh....why is my life so busy....???? I seriously hate YE now!!!

p/s: thx thx thx huining for being so nice to allow me to delay my deadline for the layout. and really sorry about that, cause' I really couldn't find any spare time to do it.

yawnzzz (my title has been very "sleepish")

yawnz...i just woke up at 9.00pm...shocked....I haven't bath, haven't eat, haven't do homework, haven't....

ok...so quickly bath n eat, its 9.30...I typed the letter to get permission for camera for YE, and another one for prefects, and then...I AM COOL!!!! I got my info for my sivik n C4R project in 1 hour! for both! and now I got the photos for the ed-baord, the school magazine front page layout.

crap la, this friday deadline, I know I've got an idea in my brain, but I don't think it would be a great piece of work. I mean, it's school magazine, FRONT PAGE! As what I know, last year, Jie Hui took hours or days to get hers done, but mine...I plan to finish it in 1 hour...my computer has been formatted, and no photoshop here, I got to use the Ed-Board computer. and hopefully tomorrow...as wednesday YE got the production and many ppl are coming and I gotta supervise them.

and you know what, 2moro YE oso got production, but less ppl coming. but, theres always a BUT, pn phang ask me to call pn tan to stay back and supervise them, I just called her, she sounded quite annoyed, well...so gotta make sure the peeps turn up 2moro and really do something, or else we are, or maybe only i am, dead. so does that means that I gotta go for YE 2moro? crap...so that's the point, I am doing the layout in 1 freaking hour in the ed-board and rush for the YE production...see...so busy....

and yea...today's case, I don't really see it as a BIG case, but I wonder why the seniors, or maybe only Min Chern sees it as such a sky-falling case. It's like, he is eager to get rid of that guy from the school, but with such small little fry case ar, I don't really think it will work. I mean, other students are also having hair problem, wearing some fashion thingy to school, which we just ask them to take off and let them go, but the only thing that is different is, this particular guy always make prefects feel threatened, that's all. i don't know how to put in my words, but, it just aint that serious enough to get him rid of the school. and what weng yan told me is...he got a counseling that's all....swt right, after all our efforts trying to make it as "land-shaking" as possible...

so tired...really really tired...I have been sleeping in class lately during intervals. Even saying one sentence more is a waste of energy to me...I just hope things end soon...yawnzz.....

Why is my time so limited!!!????

ok...(take a deep breath) I WANT MORE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My weekend ended with me doing NONE of my homework. I repeat - NONE!!! I got Chemistry Practical, Bio Practical (delayed for a week due to the class-skipping for Ed-Board, which I did it HAPPILY), Bio peka, Maths, Add-Maths, Chinese Essay, BC Keratan Akhbar, BC workbook, Sivik project (!!), and PHYSICS PRACTICAL!!!!!!!!!!

You must be wondering, 48 hours, what have I done? Ok let me tell you. from 12.00 midnight till 7.00am on Saturday, I've been sleeping. 7.00 - 8.00 preparing to go to school and on my way to school, 8.00 - 3.30 I stayed in school. 3.30 - 6.00 Busying with YE stuff in front of my computer mailing peeps, plus blogging, 6.00 - 7.30 bath and dinner. 7.30 - 12.00 sleeping for dunno-why.

12.00 - 1.00 on Sunday, active in front of my computer checking mail and do replying and plus blogging, 1.00am till 9.00am sleeping (too tired till I told you I can happily spend all my time sleeping), 9.00 - 9.30 breakfast, 9.30 till 12.00 have my haircut with the stupid 2 hours of waiting, 12.00 - 1.30 lunch, 1.30 to 2.30 reading newspaper. 2.30 to 4.00 took my nap. 4.00 till 6.30 took my time mailing and replying mail + busy calling people, 6.30 to 8.00 have my dinner for my brother's birthday (why was he borned on these time 9 years ago??? Why can't he be borned 1 month later???) 8.00 to 9.00 DID MY HOMEWORK FOR 1 HOUR (screams) and 9.00 to 11.00pm BUSY WITH YE STUFF AGAIN....

sigh...why do I still have time blogging...? I dunno...I just feel like exploding inside-out. I mean, I should have a good rest and start panic only from Monday, and have my hyper busy life on weekdays which result in me sleeping from 12 to 4am every day. But now even after weekend I am not rully rested, how am I suppose to go "tiring up myself" during weekdays??? Guess I will have to wake up 3.30 2moro to do homework. Wish me luck...

yawnz...

somehow I think I need more sleep. It's like, everyday reached home and I will just sleep until 8++ without bathing or dining. so sleepy...

I've got tonnes of things to do, and my brain can't remember whole bulk of them. I've forgot about pasting the notice on the YE board (screams) and I've forgot to look for Ying Xin...ahhh....and skipping class result in tonnes of unfinished homework and notes to copy, but i dun give a damn...I just wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppp......

next week need to pass up the sivik projek for my group 2 type it out, and need to hand in the magazine front page layout, and I got so no-time on saturday, and left a miserable sunday to finish all the tasks...I wish I have 48 hours in a day, and I will happily spend the extra 24 hours sleeping...yawnz...

can I buy time??? YE's profit can't buy me time...xDDDD, I am doing a pasti-rugi urus niaga

tired of hell.....

u c, i so long din blog d (altho few days onli, but seems like i've been taking one day as two). thursday YE meeting, quite frustrated, and friday was...what did i do ar? morning count money for the class photo in ed-board room, super relaxing. it feels so good to be ordered around, when you dont have to think, just follow orders.

after school count money for afternoon session photo, but seem that most didn't give us the money so we did very little. then...skipped ungu, cuz counting money. and pn.chan is so nice and she belanja us refreshment. then go to amcorp to pick up stuff. (oh now i reliase, i just blogged 2 days ago) since some ppl din come, onli me lily and yee aun, we bring back the stuff with lots of trouble. carrying the stuff was a pain. yee aun almsot broke her hand, well in terms of mentally. and lily missed 1 hour of her tuition.

saturday YE production day. i still dun understand why the box are all messed up in their sizes. perhaps is that ppl are drawing the outline that i gave them using the sample, so when drawing the sizes are enlarged by 1mm each sides. thats the most reasonable reason i can came up with. in the end we produced...none. yes none. a lot boxes done, but only halfway done. still haven put up the decos. lily should be dying these 2 days...she brought all the already-made boxes home and now she got like 10++ boxes to decorate. and then she's working with the rubber stamp, and then ed-board oso got stuff 2 do, aihz....

i feel really lost. seriously dunno what to do. its like i dunno what's in teacher's mind, and i can't even ask her what to do. i do according to what i know, and then their are something that i nvr imagine or thought of, that teacher can suddenly reveal to me. so the plan again and again is messed up. and i was so shocked to know that xin lin (last year's MD) was so stressed up and she even cried because of the stress. sigh...i think i am no where better. u ask seniors, they tell u according to what they know. but this year situation is different, we r not fully exposed to what YE is and we gotta come up with a sales plan. its like the situation is in chaos now, and yet ppl r complaining on oh-so-little stuff, and backstabbing everywhere. there are a lot members, guys especially, can relax and keep their hands free and talking during the production. and i see the girls seriously are working and working non-stop. and i mentioned bringing me the prototype, hell they dissapoint me again n again. should i give them the last chance? or should i just eliminate the idea suggested? i feel cruel doing that, but the ppl are taking an advantage seeing me just talk without taking any action. i reli reli cannot tahan these ppl. sales is in less around 10 days, and they can still sit back, relax and goyang kaki. and none volunteered to help us to do the box. its like i bring back 20-30 boxes to paste, and lily bring around 10++. and i am not bothered to ask them to do it. if i do ask, they will happily agree, and then when i ask back from them when the deadline comes, they say oh not done.

afternoon prefect duty, i was really mad and no mood to eat. so i duty after eating just ice cream and work. becca and su saint are the boss(es) of the day. so i am jsut being ordered around. yea nice. dun have to think with the brain. and you get to relax ur brain. but su saint's way of ordering really looks boss-like (is this called boss-y? [bossy?]) but ah well, somehow i really dislike it last year but that day i take it like nothing. well and i do appreciate her help by taking 5 boxes home 2 paste.

p/s: for some ppl that u think i do not trust u by not giving u any task to do, ask urself b4 u complain that i pilih kasih. its either, u do not earn my trust, or u LOST MY TRUST. think urself, trust is gained by ur action, not falling from the sky. u cant expect me to trust u when u keep delaying the task given and simply do ur job or by talking without action. moreover, to some ppl, u lost my trust day by day by TALKING BIG all the time. HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO TRUST YOU???? HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO GIVE IMPORTANT TASK TO YOU??? i can only give you small task that is not important and does not affect anything whether it is done or not. think about it.

i can trust ppl with no pose, instead of trusting some high poses like manager or directors. because THE ELECTION IS DONE BY FIRST SIGHT and FIRST IMPRESSION. u can talk something very nice and very idealistic, ppl will trust you by thinking "oh this guy thinkgs far and critically" without seeing "this guy talks without doing job" and vote you. when time goes I will know who is talking and mean what they said, or who is just talking but will nvr fulfill his promise. again, TRUST DOES NOT FALL FROM THE SKY, AND TRUST IS NOT GIVEN JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE MY FRIEND. dun take advantage that you are my friend and i can entrust everything to you. DUN TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED, i tell u i am hell serious and i differentiate personal relationship with my work very well. you can be a friend, but you might not be a good committee. AND I WILL EXPEL YOU JUST LIKE I WILL EXPEL OTHERS IF YOU DO NOT FOLLOW THE GUIDELINE SET FOR ALL MEMBERS. hate me if you want, but I wun say sorry for that. u deserve it. know where is ur power limit, dun misuse ur power by taking advantage just because ur friend is what what what director. IF I FIND ANY MISUSE OF POWER, STRAIGHT AWAY EXPEL.

Exhausted....

Apparently yesterday night was rushing on my things that are not done which are stated on my to-do list. And I couldn't finish all of them, so just hantam aje, do what that I have to pass up today. Today not much homework (thank goodness) but I am still very exhausted...I wonder why...

Recap my day, the day started with me waking up at 4.30 to finish up my long-delayed karangan. And reached school in a very very sleepy and tired mood. I feel as if I wish to speak as least as possible, like what the Mugen no Kantai in Shakugan no Shana did, (banjo no shite Whilhelmina Carmel's Lord of Guze) speak only 4 words everytime it/she speaks...how good...

Duty was like...half sleeping, but thank goodness I am still concentrate enough to carry them out, at least. And back to class was sort of a relief. Esspecially with my CURRENT results. (not for those later). Oh yea, 4S3 the pity class has switched with 4S5 to use the class beside Block E toilet. Should I pity them or congratulate them? Toilet is just beside so you can go to the toilet in between class without pas keluar with a very small chance of getting caught. But hope you guys can bare with the "perfume smell" (p/s: Just please dont start spreading the smell or even "bottle-ize" it and spray on us)

Apparently after school's badminton was very dissapointing. It took me half an hour to finish a burger, which I don't know why, perhaps no mood? And I just couldn't do things right. Almost every single smash I did was on the net. I wonder...too exhausted? Before the activity ends my hand was in pain. I wonder why too. It never happened to me for playing an 1 and 3 quarter hour game. But today it was just very pain as if the hand was twisted. I remember I didn't block many smashes which will drain more energy. And so, my conclusion is: I am too tired to even play a badminton game.

Reached home at 5.30, take a nap and woke up by a phone call. Pn Phang.....so you know what is it related to. And yea....she got some new idea on our product, which will not be revelaed as the producing of the product is prohibited for the YE program. So just forget about it......

Apparently just after the nap my body is in full ache. But now I still have tonnes of unfinished business to get them done. Wish me luck. Chaoz.

p/s: I posted my 22nd post after including this in a month. Not bad ey?

Photoshoot is finally over! (And so as Chinese New Year *sobs*)

Only one word I can describe of photoshoot session : tiring...

As the ketua koridor, I was running all around the corridor (duh), and wherever the cameraman goes, but how I wish I can split myself into two! corridor is really lack of men power. First day was, chaotic, second day, messy...I keep changing my plan, asking for more people but it didn't help, so at the end I gotta change to Plan C, yes its plan C, not plan B, by asking the probays and people to run following the cameraman with me. At first it went quite well, but some people started to thinkthat corridor is a boring place, they rather go to the stations and go ordering people go left go right, and did not tell me where they went.

I was quite pissed la, and I think I spoke quite harshly at the end due to the frustrations and the tiredness. In the briefing session we mentioned that corridor is the most important place, but yet they take it lightly and go kepo in stations which they shouldn't be in, and leave the corridor empty. There were many cases where I just shoo the people from the tar road away then people walking near the corridor; shoo them away people walking at the tar road again...sigh...

After the first day duty my legs totally went numb...really really cannot walk properly. and the second day, the weather is hot, and running around really eats energy. At first Plan C went out quite well, but the 2nd shift, people just suka suka change duty with someone else, and I don't know who is under me, and I keep losing sign of the corridors people, so I have to run even when I can barely walk properly, up and down the staircases. During the 2nd shift I totally don't know what was I doing, I only knew I ran a lot...and when the photoshoot is finally over, I was like...robot stop functioning...and feel like sleeping on the spot where I was standing right away...I am really really really (x100) exhausted...

and what waiting me are prefects' marching and rumah ungu......