election heat

Top 5...Unexpectedly I got into it. I thought I wont get it.
Grats to Shu Han, Lily, Jin Yee and Khai Hoe.

I am quite dissapointed, cause' Livia didn't get into it. But it is a close match, tho I feel sayang for her.

Election is next week. Oh my I have to prepare speech, and I suck at speeches. X_X (hopefully organising meetings and talk in front of the YE ppl will help in this)

And yea, thanks for those who voted me and get me into the top5, tho I don't know who you are, but really thank you.

I guess that's all, good luck and happy voting. xDD

Fill in urself

Just felt relieved that I got into the top 10. I thought I won't get it. Quite satisfied with the top 10 ppl. will have a close match. I hope I can get into top 5, but I dun reli mind if I don't. I just aim for the top10, and now I've reached my aim. It's ok to go into top5, but if otherwise it's fine with me too.

Good luck voting prefects!

I overslept

Ok I just woke up at 4.30 in the morning...crap...but thank god I still wake up at 4.30, not 6.30.

ok you must be thinking 4.30...? why? it's early and definitely not overslept. Ok let me tell you, I overslept for like...*counting* 7 hours?

Shit shit shit...I slept at 8 last night, set alarm to wake me at 9 (that makes 7 hours), and after that...just switch it off thinking nvm i will have another alarm --- by 9.30 chris is suppose to call me. and after receiving her call I just....poof went back to sleep.

crap...I SHOULD HAVE ON9!!!! I need to do so much stuff when the peeps are on. the ITC report, stuff like dis and that, so much so much to do and I just sleep like a pig. *But just like lily it's long since I've sleep so long like this and it's totally refreshing* but but I felt so bad la...it's something urgent and need to be handed in before next monday, and now we are just...halfway or less done? and I just sleep for my own good...felt so irresponsible la...crap crap....

and my homework...? nvm...I will settle it in school. Now i have to do what I haven't done yesterday night

Fed Up

I just realised that I am crowded with a lot of hypocrites. They say something nice, say how good you are, act like your friend, behind you they just stab you with something sharper than dagger.

I really look up to those who are honest. They don't mind saying your bad things out in front of you. Words might be harsh, but I know they want me to change for better good. I salute you, you are really a true friend. Words are harsh, but better than stabbing you from back without confronting you. If you dislike the way I do, tell me, so I can change, don't just say something behind me, I dislike it. If you think I am the kind of people that couldn't take advice, then I have to tell you that you don't know me at all. I might look like one, but to be frank I am willing to. It just take time. You can't expect someone to change his attitude in a day, same applies to me, you have to give me time.

I hate politics. Unfortunately lately people have been relating whatever I do to politics. Whatever I do, even without any single intention, they can relate to something big, like I like attention, like I want to show how capable I am, like I am fake, even a cry can be said as a fake to show how pity I am. wtf?

I don't really mind what you say to me. It is a pain in heart, not because someone misunderstands me, if any random people misunderstand me, I am fine with it, action will prove that I am not as they say one day. What makes me feel heart cold is that people who seriously backstabbing you, are those who you call "best friends". I don't really understand how can they fake a smile so nicely in front of you, and behind you say something as bad as shit.

Are they just using me? Using me to get known among seniors? Not to be perasan but, I think quite often I am exposed to seniors, as in chatting and befriend with them. But these are thought as "gaining attention JUST for election", they say I never treat the seniors with real friendship. I don't mind. They just don't know me.

These people, often known as the "NATO", No Action Talk Only. They talk, yes they do, in fact they have seriously good ideas and opinions that one might think they are capable people. But when you know them long enough, you realise they talk but no action. When comes to practical, you don't even see a god damn bloody shadow of them.

They think I am so perasan to think I am too great to isolate them. Yes I do starting to isolate them, but because of all the hypocrisy. Hell don't expect me to befriend you when I know how you treat me ok?

Last year, I thought some of my seniors were over-reacted when they don't get what they want. They are not that committed anymore. I just thought that they over-reacted. Now I understand how you guys feel. Sorry to all those I misunderstood, tho I never tell anyone just kept inside my heart, but I do seriously feel sorry about the wrong impression. IT IS NOT THE POSE YOU GET MATTERS. It's what your friends, who you think are friends, thought about you that matters right? It is that that makes you feel discouraged right?

Those who are always being hypocrates, please please I beg you, stop your childish rumors spreading. You don't like it when people start saying you bad things. Please don't. If you want my respect, EARN IT, I don't respect you just because you are my friend for 3 years. In fact I can respect someone in 2 months. Yes Shaun Quah, I truly respect what you are doing, tho others never understand how much you did behind them, but I know, you are a true friend.

p/s: Pls don't be perasan and say who I mention is you. I nvr pin point anyone with all the negative characteristics I mentioned above.
pp/s: Thanks a lot to those who always stick with me thick and thin, thanks for all the encouragement and advices you all gave me all the time, it is you who makes me think that life still worth to be treasured.

Special thanks to:
Christine
Chen Nyap
Shu Han
Becca
Min Chern
Yung Hsin
and many many more who always, or sometimes sit down and listen to my grudge. Su Teng, Peter, Lie Yang Shin Yee, Choon Lim, Jin Yee, Shiau Ling, Hui Yee, Chin Ming, Dennis, Zong Yao and more that I couldn't finish listing. I will move on with life okay? Just give me more time to overcome things.

Layout changed

I changed my layout again. Somehow the colours are kind cold and empty like, and dunno why they conflict with each other. I guess that's what I feel now.

"I reach my hand out, only realised I am still feeling unsecure"

Currently listening to --- COLORS by FLOW (Code Geass Opening 1) --- Reflecting my inner self.

Interview

I think I made the right choice. Altho in just a day I decided to give up the goal I've set since 1 year ago. But I think I made it right. It's not the pose that matters me, what matters is how will the prefects work together.

Indeed, I did a lot of things to make sure I didn't say the wrong thing in the interview. I even read the paper I prepared again and again - Just to make sure my desire of getting the head prefect pose doesn't beat my sense that being the asst. might be better than me being the head.

i just can't believe one year has passed. I've been in stress without being concious to it, until these days I somewhat realised how stressed I am. Too much expectation, but I think I will fail them. But it is good to finally release what I was feeling. For the past year I never cry for this thing. Today I cried - I made a right decision.

It might not be the right decision in others' eyes - yes I am always been misunderstood by people. They judge the negative side of every single action I did, even though I never even thought of serving the board is a way to get attention or to impress the seniors and teachers, but people did judge me like that. It would be hard to believe someone actually just do something for the board without any motive, even I don't believe. But indeed, I tried to ask myself what is my real motive, the feeling of getting all the spotlight isn't the first answer I got. I feel responsible for the board. I love the board more than anything else. Believe it or not is your choice. I don't want to clarify my stand or what so ever, as long as I know what I am doing, I don't have to care how others think about me.

I've never tell anyone about what I feel or how I feel. I just don't know what I feel, to be exact. In fact, close friends' betrayal is more than any backstabbing, it hurts the most, but yet it's what I always receive. They say it's out of jealousy. I wouldn't want to think like that on my friends, but I couldn't find any other reason for it.

I think I've grown up. I am not the me two years ago. I understand why people misunderstand me. For what I was two years ago. It is hard to change people's impression. I don't mind. I get what I deserve. But I just want to say - I think I've grown up. I think I've made the right choice. And I don't care what you think about me. I am I. You don't have to agree with me. Nobody asks you to.

I am in dilema

It's tomorrow omigod.......

Come on, pls, think of the pose u want, what pose you reli want damn it........

ketua? asst? bendahari? disiplin?

for what? for why? why do you want it? why do you think deserve it? why why why????????

Should I back off or not? I really wish her to be the head, no anyone else. Should I backoff for her? What if she doesn't get it and someone else who doesn't deserve it who got it? Am I really that good to call myself better than others? Do I have the right to say others are weak?

I am the one who is loser...

Stressed! Burden~~~!!! Don't put so much hope on me. I will dissapoint you guys. Pls.

I wanna skip interview tomorrow. I can't decide---what pose I want?

Workshop

Ok today skipped class went to AMCHAMP workshop on International Trading Challenge, its sumthing I had totally no idea, freaking challenging. I just want to comment that----THE AIRCOND IS FREAKING COLD. *shivers* (even blazers are not enough)

Anyway, my schedule ahead is damn freaking tight. JUST FOR YE ok?
30th June - Deadline for ITC report submission
1st and 2nd July - Stock Challenge
25 July - Sunway Pyramid Sales
sumwhere is August - Taylors UC Sales
in between July to September - Sales in School
4 Sep - Deadline for Yearly Reports Submission

sigh...and prefects election is coming up. X_X

p/s: should I? or should I not?

EXAM OVER!!!!!

I am just here to announce to the world----

THE BLOODY EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!

p/s: I'm random, just posting to revive my blog from hibernating.

Singapore Open Badmtinon Final

ok I know this is late, since I just have my time to start blogging. yes! 2moro is the last paper, bio 3 and i dun give a damn. lolx anyway lets stick to the title.

The match was on Sunday, which was yesterday, and I guess all of us has know the result. But who cares. The men singles was...fun...(?) watching?

The first set was 1-0, 1-1, 2-1, 2-2, 3-2....til 8-8, to 8-9. finally chongwei manage to get 2 points in a row, its like...wow...such a close match. the rest was announced after chong wei got his 11-10 point. and after that, I guess he warmed up enough, and won it straight with 21-13.

Second round was syok. 0-0 til 15-0. we were cheering 21-0 for him. xO. but cannot la, must "let water" a bit, or else ppl no face lo. so after that he oso din really chase after the shuttle d. chin chai la, he oso won 21-5. tot hes going to make history for 21-0, but maybe hes not the first one, others might have the same possibility to win 21-0, but have to "let water" one la. oh well. nvm. ITS SYOK!

I LOVE BADMINTON. and I dun watch football, cause I hate it.

Wow...

I still can't believe I manage to have 6 hours of accounts lesson with a lunch and a short nap...

Accounts exam will be on the coming Wednesday, and I haven't study a bit until yesterday night. Ah well...since my teacher --- my cousin was having her exam, and she just finished her exam and had her time to give me my very first lesson until yesterday night.

Topics covered:
Chapter 2 - Akaun Perdagangan and Akaun Untung Rugi - Did some exercise altho I learnt it in Form 3, cause what I learnt was just barely touching it without details.
Chapter 3 - Documents - flash thru since I learnt it in Form1
Chapter 4 - Jurnal - halfway
Chapter 5 - Lejar - just do exercise since I learnt it in Form2

Cool right? I covered so much in just around...7 hours?

Anyway, gotta chao for other preparation. I am so dead for playing so much in the holiday. X_X

Farewell Rachael

Went to Mid Valley today in the afternoon to give Rachael a farewell at Mid Valley before her departure to US. 7 ppl turned up + her = 8 ppl. So sad la, so few. Ah well, we had graduate for 4 years, maybe we dont see each other as important as before anymore. T_T. anyway, those who didn't come missed the fun lo.


The cake we bought for her. *manage to finish half and force her to bring the other half home*

Si Jun and Rachael. *see Si Jun so kuat makan*

*Group pic 1*

*Group pic 2* (I blocked Chang Meng. xD)

Nah now compensate, take ur solo shoot. lolx

Making fun of the cake.

*Chang Meng: see all so daogei
*Si Jun: dunno whos the one with two ketchup bottle one ar? still say ppl daogei

Wah Shen Wen kuat makan oso

Memang kuat makan

is she burp-ing?

Look at the funny cake Ai Lee is holding. It's gonna be in Shen Wen's stomach later

*Group pic 3* at the bowl centre.

Emo~~~

My emo fever is back again! x_x

I wonder why?

Just afraid of sitting somewhere without doing anything. I feel empty, I will think a lot. "kodoku no kimochi~~~kirai"

nobody's on9 in msn, I guess most ppl are asleep. I wanted to find someone to talk with, but who? I couldn't turn to anyone, thats what I hate. "dare mo shinji dekinai"

"uragiri wa itsudemo soba ni iru" This is a curse. Never ending curse. It just keep repeating. "dare ka shinji dekiru?"

-Kai Boon is back emoing again-

My First Tag!!! =p =p

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
after 25 before 30 xDxD (wait...I dont even have a target yet...nvm I can get one by then lolx)

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
JAPAN!!!! (duh)

3. If you could have one word that'll describe your mood right now, what would it be?
errr.....normal?

4. What is the thing that happened recently which has made your life more enjoyable?
Joined the Ungu Marching Squad~~~I made new friends I play new things I I I I I got too much things to say about it!!!!! XXXXXXDDDDDDDD

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
the dream will be "I wish I can make another 100 dreams come true!!!" XDDDDD

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
$.$ no (I am money minded

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
friends...???????

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Buy myself lots of gundam model!!!! And then go and play like mad, and invest so I can earn more money~~~ bwahahahaha $$$$$ *kaching kaching*

9. How would you describe the person u like *at the moment*?
I dont even have a target =.= (wait its like, I like my best friend =D) dunny, blur, perasan, kawaii. lolx

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
Shes funny, shes cute, and shes good at singing!!! =p =d =b

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
helpful, understanding, dont shop like mad lolx. and good in house management. =p

12. If you could rewind time would you?
YESSSSSSSSS!!!! I want 3A2!!!!!!!!

13. What's your ambition?
errr....dunno? wait...is husband counted? lolx

14. Are you emotional?
err...i guess yes? u gotta ask my friends. *pointing chatbox*

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
most ar...I am too greedy eh....my friends are important, myself is important, money is important =p =p. most of course would be my teenager life being with all my friends la.

16. If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
My emo-mad during form2 @.@

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
hot tempered @.@

18. What music have you been listening to recently?
japanese (all the time)

19. What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could?
erhem erhem...you really want to make me say it? lolx (thinking dirty) ok lets be a good boy. hmm....change some reli beh-tahan ppl's attitude.

20. What do you like most about birthday?
birthday is the day you are the king!!!! you can request anything you want. xDDDDD (evil me)

thx qihui aka mashimaro for the tag :p and now I am being evil to tag someone. xDDDD
1. Lily
2. Jin Yee
3. Julian
4. Lie Yang
5. Dennis
6. Ern Khai
7. Cheng Chun
8. (scratch head) haha Li Shawn. lolx

yay I tagged 8 peeps!!!! (finally manage 2 get 8 ppl. evil boon is tagging you!!! XD)

*edited. thanks to peter's advice (I finally find out why, cause I cannot type this >.< as these brackets are used for the html codes)*